I don't get it...

I feel like I've missed something along the way here. Granted, at times that isn't too inaccurate a thought for me. Yes, this is another of those 'I'd rather post this here than burden Justin 115% with it, since it's a vent more than a problem needing fixing', but I know he reads my journal and will give whatever support he can.

So, here goes:

( Thoughts contained back here )